THE CHILD OF LOVE...
by Axel Terizaki <firstname.lastname@example.org> ICQ # 34301980
ASUKA's Notebook First Gateway <http://perso.club-internet.fr/aterizak>
Second Gateway <http://perso.wanadoo.fr/borisd)
Retooled by Dave Watson <email@example.com>, 1999 5 13.
Now the crisis is even worse: Due to his failure during an Angel attack,
Shinji is full of self-doubt. He doesn't know if he will be able to
protect Asuka and his unborn daughter Teri like he promised to.
Obviously, Asuka is both furious and depressed because it seems like
Shinji is abandoning her and their little girl...
Damn! The situation seems hopeless! Asuka is condemned to a certain
death, Ritsuko is in prison and NERV Commander Ikari Gendo whereabouts
are unknown. The only two people left who capable of doing something
to try to stop the insanity are Misato and Kaji. Our poor couple will
need all the help they can get...
Will Misato and Kaji find something in Osaka-2? Will Shinji pull him-
self together? When will Gendo come back? What is Asuka going to do
*alone*? Knowing that, for the real AXL's Game Center, we use 12 PCs,
that there are only two power outlets in the room and each PC needs one
for its power supply, that 39% of the machines need their monitors to
be plugged in and 43% also need another outlet for speakers, plus, in
addition of that, we need outlets for a camcorder charger, a TV, a VCR,
a sound mixer, a Sony Playstation, and a hi-fi (plus four speakers with
one outlet per two speakers), the question is: How many plug adaptors
and extension cords will we need? Please structure your exercise and
present it in time for next week. Thanks. No, no...I'm not asking for
help :-) )
CAPTION: THE EIGHTH MONTH
CAPTION 2: You Are Not Alone
Misato's apartment. The front door slides open and reveals Misato,
Misato (to herself) : "Damn, these so-called bio-scientists couldn't
help us at all! What an enlightening trip that was!!!"
She steps into her apartment and sees that, during the week she was
absent, her home hadn't changed a bit. It was as if there had been no
one else except her in the house. She goes to Shinji's room, only to
see that he's not there. The most worrying thing was his belongings
weren't there, either. Well, most of them.
Misato (to herself) : "Where could he have gone?"
She then decides to look for Asuka.
Misato : "Ah, at least she's here..."
She knocks on her door.
Asuka (softly) : "Who is it?"
Misato : "It's me, Asuka. I'm back!"
Asuka : "Hmmmm...welcome home, Misato."
Misato (to herself) : "Oh oh oh...Asuka's NOT mad at me because I left
without any reason? I fear the worst..." (to Asuka:) "May I come into
The answer comes only a second later.
Asuka : "Yes, come in..."
Misato walks in and shuts the door behind her. She sees Asuka curled
up on her bed, facing the wall.
Misato : "Can I sit down?"
Asuka : "...yeah..."
Misato sits, facing Asuka's back.
Misato : "Hmmm...you...did anything happen while I was out?"
Asuka : "No. Nothing really important."
Misato : "Well...how was your week without me?"
Asuka : "Boring."
Misato : "Boring? I phoned Hikari in order to ask her to go get you...
you didn't go with her?"
Asuka : "The first two days, yeah...but after that...no."
Misato can see that Asuka's very sad. The exhausted, weary type of sad
that doesn't allow any more tears to flow. An uncomfortable pause.
Misato : "Do you...do you know where's Shinji n..."
Asuka throws a pillow at Misato without letting her finish her question.
Asuka : "I DON'T CARE ABOUT THAT DUMKOPF!!!!"
Misato : "Hey, hey...calm down, please..."
Asuka : "HOW CAN I CALM DOWN, MISATO?!! Seriously! How can I!!!? How
can I when I think about that son of a bitch!!?"
Misato : "Hey!! Don't talk like that about Shinji. He doesn't deserve
Asuka : "Of course, he does!!! Leaving Teri and me alone like that!
He's nothing but a son of a--"
Misato (interrupting her) : "Please, Asuka. I don't want to hear that
word anymore, especially if it's intented to Shinji."
Asuka : "So, do you have any better ideas about what I should call
Misato : "Asuka...what happened? Please tell me. I don't know why
you're like this now. I want to know why."
Actually, Misato knew very well what happened, since she was (almost)
there when it occurred. She just wanted to hear Asuka's version of the
Asuka : "After that last Angel attack, that idiot decided that he was no
longer worthy to be Teri's father...in other words, he doesn't love me
anymore! I can't take it...I just can't..."
Tears finally began to come. Slowly, but surely.
Asuka : "I...I don't know why I'm telling you all this...you don't know
Misato : "Do you think I'm blind, Asuka?"
Asuka (sobbing a little) : "Huh?"
Misato : "Wait a minute here. My two only roommates acting like lovers
from one month to another...I'd have to be deaf *and* blind to not notice
that. And...I saw you two kissing in the car last week, remember? I
bet that you forgot about the rear-view mirror. And what about the many
times when I surprised you two? You were so embarrassed...and I also
know that sometimes you've slept together in your bed. I'm not stupid,
Asuka : "..."
Misato : "Come on...you can't hide the obvious facts anymore. I know you
love him. And--"
Asuka : "I LOVED him. Past tense, Misato."
Misato : "I can't believe you, Asuka. You can't love someone and decide
not to love him the next day. All you'll get from that is pain."
Asuka : "So, you're telling me that you still love Kaji?"
Misato (trembling) : "Y-yes. Okay...I think I still love him. But
that's beside the point. Don't try to change the subject..."
Asuka : "Shinji's a bastard. Nothing more."
Misato : "Asuka...tell me. Do you love him?"
Asuka : "..."
Misato : "Do you love him...?"
Asuka : "..."
Misato : "DO YOU LOVE HIM!?"
Asuka : "N...."
Misato (frowning) : "DO YOU *LOVE* HIM!?"
Asuka (between little sobs) : "Yes... I..."
Misato : "You what?"
Asuka (again, between sobs) : "I...I do...I love him...with all my heart,
all my body, and all my soul..."
Misato (smiling warmly) : "Good."
Asuka (screaming) : "NO, THAT'S NOT GOOD, MISATO!!!"
The smile leaves Misato's face immediately at this. Asuka's eyes shed
more and more tears as the words come out.
Asuka : "I love him! I gave him all the things that I kept in my soul
from everyone else! I shared everything with him! Even my pains! And
how does he return it to me? BY LEAVING ME ALONE!!! With our child!"
Misato : "..."
Asuka : "I gave him...everything...everything...I waited for that moment
....the moment where I could finally say everything to someone in whom I
could put all my trust, all my hopes...Shinji was the one. I was ready
to love him back. To give him affection like I never did to anyone else.
To offer him everything. I finally opened myself, as you told me to.
Then I won what I was hoping for...comfort and consolation. He gave me
all this. And now I regret it! Misato...I felt so safe with him...I
felt so good... I wasn't myself with him but I enjoyed it. I really,
really did. Two months later he just ruined all my hopes and my efforts
by saying, 'Asuka, please leave. I'm not able to protect you.'"
Misato : "Asuka..."
Asuka : "I was alone! ALONE! I was pleased with that! But...now...I
don't want to be alone anymore...it hurts! Being alone is nothing but
pain! I...I then saw Shinji. The only one who could care for me. I had
doubts about how he would see me. Despite all the terrible things I've
said and done to him, he cared. I wanted to see how it was to receive
love from someone. I...I...dammit! Misato, why do I need him so badly?
Is that love? Really? Is love pain? Why does it feel like a flame's
burning into my body every time I'm near him? Is that what we call true
She begins to cry louder. Misato had never seen her roommate in so much
pain and sadness before. She lowers her head and puts a hand on Asuka's
Misato : "You're not alone, Asuka...I'm here, we're all here for you.
You know that...and, yes, this is love. With all the happiness and
sadness it can bring to you. Love is like a double-edged sword. One day
it can make you the happiest person on earth, and the next day, it can
make you cry like you never did before. I know what it is, Asuka. But
love isn't a bad feeling. It's up to you to decide what to do with it.
If you're prepared, if you *want* to give and receive it, love will
bring you everything except sadness. Believe me."
Misato : "Listen. I'll do everything I can to bring him back to normal!"
Asuka (looking up at Misato, face still covered with tears) : "W-what?"
Misato (winking) : "Yeah! Believe me, we'll have our old beloved Shin-
Asuka (sniffling and smiling slightly) : "H-hey! I'm the only one
authorized to call him 'Shin-chan'!"
Misato (chuckling) : "Who decided that?"
Asuka : "Me, of course!"
Misato (laughing) : "Okay, then. Well, get some rest. You'll need it."
Suddenly, the doorbell rings.
Misato : "I'll go and see who it is."
She opens the front door...
Misato : "Yes...?"
Hikari : "Hi, Major Katsuragi. I'm glad you're finally back. I'd like
to see Asuka."
Misato : "Welcome, Hikari. She's in her room..."
Hikari : "How is she?"
Misato : "I think I calmed her down...see for yourself."
Hikari steps into the apartment.
Misato : "Well. I'm leaving now. Please tell that to Asuka, OK?"
Hikari : "Hai, Major!"
Misato (smiling) : "You can call me Misato, you know..."
Hikari : "O-okay, Misato-san."
Outside. Misato jumps into her car and barrels towards Central Dogma at
Misato : "Dammit...where are you, Shinji?"
Somewhere else in Tokyo-3, Shinji is in a phone box, making a call.
Misato's voice on the phone : "Please leave a message! I'll call you
Shinji (to himself) : "Misato-san...where are you?"
He hangs up the receiver without leaving any message. Toji and Kensuke
are waiting for him nearby.
Toji : "So...?"
Shinji : "Still not there...I wonder what happened. She left one week
Kensuke : "Hey, she's a Major at NERV, she can't possibly be in danger.
She's a big girl, after all."
Shinji : "I...I know that."
Toji : "Shinji...you still don't want to tell us why you're avoiding
Shinji : "No. I already said I don't want to talk about this right now.
I won't change my mind."
Toji : "Hey, if ya tell us, we might be able ta help ya!"
Shinji : "Really, I don't think so. Not now."
Kensuke : "Don't force him, Toji."
Toji : "Well, we should go now, if you don't want to talk...it's time
for school now, anyways!"
Misato's Office in NERV H.Q. She walks in and notices that it's
more calm than usual...
Misato : "Well..."
She sits at her desk and sees that there are some messages on her phone
answering machine. She picks up the receiver, enters her access code
and listens to each message. All of them were from Shinji. In fact,
Misato was sure they would be before she played them, since the only one
who usually left messages was Kaji. Since he was with her all through-
out their "trip", Shinji was the only one who could have done that.
Now, the question is: Why? However, only one message made her really
Shinji : "Misato-san. I...I'd like to talk...on Thursday, at 9:00 PM.
You probably know where I want to meet you. You used to let me watch
the view on Tokyo-3 from there when I was depressed. Don't bring any
NERV escorts or anybody else, please. Just me and you...thank you,
Misato (to herself) : "Today's Thursday. I'd better prepare myself."
And with that she leaves her office, forgetting why she went there in
the first place.
A splendid view of Tokyo-3, obscuring the beautiful sunset. Misato
parks her car and walks to the rendezvous point. It was where she took
Shinji after the Third Angel's attack, to show him the city he had
helped protect. But now...many things have changed. She thought about
what happened the last few months. Two Angel attacks, one pregnant
pilot, love troubles between her two roommates, and Commander Ikari...
Nothing really good, she thought. Suddenly, a voice calls out.
Kensuke : "Major Katsuragi!"
Misato turns her head to face Shinji's two classmates.
Misato : "Suzuhara-kun...and Aida-kun...what are you two doing here?"
Toji : "Well, we're here to assure Shinji that you weren't followed by
Misato : "No need to worry about that...I made an arrangement. Every-
thing's okay. I'm alone."
Shinji appears from behind them. He has a determined look on his face.
Misato had never seen Shinji look more mature than he did now. But,
given the circumstances, she knew that looks could be deceiving in this
Shinji : "Toji...Kensuke..."
Toji : "Okay, we're leavin'. Later."
Kensuke : "Later..."
The two boys disappear and left Shinji and Misato in front of the
beautiful sunset. The two of them don't speak for a while, until Shinji
finally asks a question.
Shinji (softly) : "Where were you, Misato-san?"
Misato : "I could ask you the same question."
Shinji : "Well...I was running away. As usual. You know me, don't you?"
Misato : "That's true..."
Long, awkward pause.
Shinji : "Your turn, please."
Misato : "I was at Osaka-2, with Kaji."
Shinji : "Do you really think it was a good time to take a holiday?"
Misato : "That wasn't a holiday or anything like that."
Shinji : "Ah?"
Misato : "Do you realize what you've done to Asuka, Shinji-kun?"
Shinji (lowering his head) : "I already told you. It's no use, a weak,
scared little boy like me trying to protect her and her little girl."
Misato : "You're not weak."
Shinji : "THE HELL I'M NOT WEAK!"
Misato is surprised by this sudden outburst.
Misato : "Shinji-kun, listen to me..."
Shinji : "I failed to keep my promise! There's nothing worse!"
Misato : "Of course there's something worse!"
Shinji looks up at Misato.
Misato : "You broke her heart. THAT is the worst thing I know!"
Shinji : "I...she'll find someone else. Someone stronger. I'm
Misato : "You're SOMEONE, Shinji! You're Ikari Shinji! Designated
Pilot of Evangelion Unit 01! Do I have to remind you of all the things
Shinji : "..."
Misato : "Shinji-kun, please come back home. Asuka's ready to forgive
you. I'm sure of it. She's waiting to hug you and kiss you like you
two have so many times! Well, I guess, so many times."
Shinji : "No, Misato-san, I won't come back. Not now."
Misato : "Goddammit, Shinji! If you don't do this for Asuka, do it at
least for Teri! These two girls need you."
Shinji : "..."
Misato : "I know you, Shinji-kun. I know that you wanted Asuka's love
from the very beginning of all this. Maybe even before...I'll bet that,
from the first time you saw her, you knew that you *had* to live with
her forever. My question is, why are you leaving your hopes and dreams
behind when they've come true *now*? Are you afraid of them?"
Shinji : "You may be right. I may be afraid. But I won't come back.
I'm just pathetic."
Misato (sighing) : "You're right, Shinji-kun. You ARE pathetic. I
can't believe I'm hearing this from you. Leaving a mother in pain like
that, with her little girl...you're cruel, that's what you are."
She then walks back to her car without any further word.
Shinji (after a few moments) : "Misato-san, wait!"
Misato stops and turns to face him.
Shinji : "Please tell Asuka that...that I...I...still...care for...
for...for Teri. But I don't deserve her mother's love...I just don't."
Misato : "I'll pass on the message to Asuka."
And with that, she gets back into her car and drives off. Shinji walks
away, towards Toji's house.
Misato (to herself) : "Damn...why am I even bothering with all this?
Asuka will soon...oh, God, I just can't think about it...it's too sad."
Misato : "The only thing I can do now is to wait...and pray. Yes.
Pray. Really hard."
Misato's apartment. Hikari and Asuka are sitting on the edge of the
pregnant pilot's bed.
Hikari : "Do you want something to eat?"
Asuka : "No, thanks."
Hikari : "I bet you haven't eaten anything since a long time ago..."
(smiling:) "And I'm sure Teri's hungry too."
Asuka : "I said I wasn't hungry."
But a call from her stomach tells both of them the exact opposite.
Hikari (laughing) : "Okay, I'll make something for you!"
Asuka (reluctantly) : "Well..."
Hikari gets up from the bed and goes to the kitchen. Two minutes later,
she's back in Asuka's room with a sandwich in her hand. She holds out
the sandwich to Asuka.
Asuka : "Only *that*?"
Hikari (smiling) : "Well, I thought you weren't hungry."
Asuka (sighing) : "Okay, you win, Hikari. I'm now *very* hungry, so..."
She bites into the sandwich.
Hikari (chuckling) : "I'll be back in a few minutes, then. Just be
She then goes back to the kitchen and returns five minutes later with a
tray. On it is a bottle of orange juice that Asuka used to drink like
water earlier in her pregnancy (Teri seems to like that brand :-) ), and
a plate with three more sandwiches on it.
After a while, after Asuka had finished everything on the tray...
Hikari : "Do you feel better now?"
Asuka : "Hmmm...much better. Thank you."
Hikari : "How about going somewhere?"
Asuka : "Sounds good, but any idea where to go?"
Hikari : "No...not really. I don't know...AXL's Game Center?"
Asuka : "No, I don't feel like playing video games now. Maybe later."
Hikari : "Okay, if you say so...how about coming to my place tonight?"
Asuka : "Hmmm...why not? Sure. Just let me put something on and leave
a note to Misato and I'll be right with you."
Hikari : "Well, I'm waiting then...hmm, just one more thing..."
Asuka : "What?"
Hikari : "What are these pills on the kitchen table? Are they for you?"
Asuka : "Oh, those? It must be my medication...but I haven't been taking
them for a long time now. I hate how bitter they taste, and since Misato
doesn't force me to take them anymore..."
Hikari : "I think you should take them anyways. It might be for your
safety, or for Teri's, you know."
Asuka : "Who cares, after all? The father of my child left me...it must
be my mother's curse."
Hikari : "Hey, don't be so moody, Asuka. We're all here for you."
Asuka : "Lies. You're still here because I haven't found the strength
yet to push you away."
Hikari : "It's too bad that you think that, Asuka. I've always been
your friend, haven't I?"
Asuka : "Yes. But how long will you keep being my friend, Hikari?
Someday, you'll find someone better, more useful, and..." (lowering her
head:) "more...well, more friendly."
Hikari : "Oh, cut that out, Asuka! Who said that you were useless and
Asuka : "Everyone. Can't you see that yourself? I always push away
everyone I meet and since I'm pregnant, I can't pilot my Unit 02...damn
Hikari : "So you can't pilot your Eva now. That's no big deal...wait
until Teri grows a little and your life will go back to normal soon--"
Asuka : "Nothing will be like before, Hikari! I'm a mother now! You
can't understand THAT! I have responsibilities! I have someone to
protect, unlike that Ikari-bastard! Teri means the world to me, you
know...I just love her so much! Even if she isn't here yet, I love my
Hikari : "Calm down, Asuka...let's go to my place now. Okay?"
Asuka (lowering her head) : "I...sorry, Hikari."
Hikari (putting a hand on her friend's shoulder) : "It's alright, don't
Asuka : "You know, Hikari, being pregnant is so damned irritating."
Hikari : "I can understand, but remember that you're carrying a life in
your stomach, Asuka. And life is one of the most precious gifts on
earth. You should consider yourself lucky..."
Asuka : "You're right...I'm only thinking about myself. All the things
I'm enduring now are for Teri-chan's sake. I should think more about
Hikari : "I never saw you like this before, Asuka."
Asuka : "Neither did I. I never thought that one day I could *not* be
able to live normally without Shinji. Hikari, I...no, you'll think I'm
such a fool..."
Hikari : "Go on, say it! You trust me, don't you?"
Asuka : "Hikari. I...need him. You'll think I'm a complete idiot,
but...he's kinda like some drug to me. I can't live a day without
thinking about him. And since he isn't here, I feel so bad..."
Hikari : "You've changed, Asuka."
Asuka (sarcastically) : "Oh, you noticed this, too?"
Hikari : "Errr...I mean...you're not the impulsive girl I used to
Asuka (nodding) : "Hmmm...some people helped me to open myself..."
Hikari : "I'm happy that you've changed, quite frankly."
Asuka : "Really?"
Hikari : "Yes. Act on your feelings and stop lying to yourself.
Everything will be much better as a result."
Asuka is speechless for a few moments while she quickly remembers the
same words coming from her mother's voice, and from a discussion she had
with Shinji once. She lowers her head and begins to cry.
Hikari : "Asuka...? Did I say something wrong? I'm sorry..."
Asuka (wiping her tears) : "No, don't worry about it, Hikari. And...
Hikari : "Well, we should go now, don't you think?"
Asuka (sniffing and wiping her tears again) : "Okay, I'll be ready as
soon as I put something on..."
Hikari : "Hey, where's the overexcited Asuka I used to know?"
Asuka : "I SAID I'M COMING WITH YOU, OKAY!!!?"
Hikari (cheerfully) : "Ahh, that's better!"
Even though Ikari Shinji wasn't at Misato's apartment for the past
couple of weeks, he was still going to school. Misato brought him some
personal things at Toji's house sometimes. Even if she was mad at him
for leaving Asuka and his daughter like that, she was convinced that his
'runaway' period wouldn't last too long. She was wrong. She decided to
help him whenever she could. Shinji wasn't her son, but it felt like he
was. She had two children to care about after all...
School, two weeks later. Hikari approaches Shinji's desk. He was look-
ing outside, like Rei usually does. Rei, on her side, was, as usual,
not really interested in anything, except for the few glances she took
at Shinji from time to time.
Hikari : "Ikari-kun?"
For a moment, Shinji thought that it was Rei, but quickly remembers that
Rei doesn't speak in the tone of voice he just heard.
Shinji : "What is it, class rep?"
She holds out a letter to him.
Hikari : "It's from...it's strictly administrative, don't worry."
Shinji : "Well, I'll read it later, thanks."
Hikari : "I'm only doing my job."
Shinji : "Errr...class rep..."
Hikari : "Yes?"
Shinji : "I wanted to ask you...because I know you two are always
Hikari : "You still care about her?"
Shinji : "Well, I'd be lying if I said no."
Hikari (taking a deep breath) : "She's disappointed in you. I can only
tell you that."
Shinji : "...I understand."
Hikari : "Ikari...she's very upset, you know. You should come back and
apologize to her. You know how she is. Always so arrogant and strong.
But deep inside she's one of the most fragile people I know..."
Shinji : "I won't. Sorry if I'm deceiving you, too."
Hikari : "She needs you, Shinji. She's really depressed."
Shinji : "I already said--"
The teacher arrives, interrupting them.
Hikari : "Oh."
She stops the conversation and does her "Rise. Bow. Sit down." duty
to the class.
Lunch time. Shinji is alone in class. He finally decides to open the
letter Hikari gave him earlier.
Shinji (to himself) : "It may be important. Who knows?"
The letter reads : "Shinji, I'm waiting for you on the hill near the
swimming pool. I need to talk to you.
Shinji : "What does he want?"
He didn't realize that, since he stayed with Toji most of the time
(because he's been living at his place for a few weeks), he could have
told him directly instead of giving him a message. Then why did have
he have Hikari pass a message on to Shinji?
On the aforementioned hill. Shinji is laying on the grass, looking at
the sky, probably thinking about something. Then, he sees a large
shadow fall over his body. Since the sun was behind it, he could only
guess who it was by looking at the shape of the shadow.
Shinji (surprised) : "A-Asuka?"
Shinji stands up and looks behind him. Asuka is there, looking down at
him with a smile on her face. He tries to take a few steps backwards.
Asuka : "Why are you running away, Shinji?"
Shinji continues to back away from her.
Asuka (walking towards him) : "Why are you running away from us,
Shinji finally hits a tree behind him.
Shinji : "I...I'm not able to protect you, you already know that."
Asuka : "And what's the matter with that? I'm strong. I can take care
of myself. I don't need your protection. However, I need something
else from you..."
She advances towards him. Shinji doesn't move, fearful of what might
happen if he were to turn his back to Asuka. Their faces are very close
to each other. Asuka looks him right in the eyes, takes his head in her
hands and then plants a kiss on his lips. A hot passionate kiss.
Shinji's eyes open wide, but soon close themselves as he joins her in
the kiss. It lasts a few seconds before Asuka releases Shinji's head,
only to see him fall on the ground with the release. He probably didn't
recover all his senses in time to be standing upright.
Asuka (grinning and looking down at his surprised face) : "Well. I had
no idea my lips had THAT much power!"
Shinji : "Ahhh...err...well..."
Asuka (giggling) : "You seem to be comfortable here. Can I lay down
Shinji (a bit hesitantly) : "Well...I don't see any problem with that."
Asuka : "Good."
Shinji then lets himself slide down from the tree until he is laying
on the ground. Asuka lays down on his left. Pause.
Shinji : "H-how are you, Asuka?"
Asuka : "I'm fine, thanks."
Shinji already had a hard time thinking about what he could say. He
hoped that this question would open the conversation. Unfortunately,
Asuka's answer isn't what he was expecting from her. It surprises him.
Shinji : "Then I'm happy that you're fine."
Asuka : "The sky is beautiful, don't you think?"
Shinji : "How did you find I was supposed to meet Toji here?"
Asuka (grinning) : "My poor Shinji, you're hopeless..."
Shinji : "What?"
Asuka : "*I* wrote that message, not Toji. Didn't you recognize my
Shinji (ironically) : "Well, that way of drawing Kanji so badly could
only be yours. I should have guessed."
Asuka (comically furious) : "How DARE you!"
Shinji : "Ha ha..."
Asuka : "Shinji..."
Shinji : "What?"
She takes his wrist and puts his hand on her stomach, slowly rubbing
her child with it.
Asuka : "I think Teri feels better now..."
Shinji : "Asuka..."
Asuka : "Shinji. Can you feel her? Can you hear her? She's begging you
to come back home, too."
Shinji is speechless.
Asuka : "It's not so important if you can't protect me as well as you
want to. The most important thing is that we can be together, as long
as we can."
Shinji : "But..."
Asuka : "There's no 'but', baka Shinji! You're staying with me now!
Understood!? I need you so badly, you know..."
Shinji (smiling) : "jawohl, mein Kapitan!"
Asuka (laughing) : "'Yes, Asuka' will be fine."
Shinji starts laughing, too. Some moments pass until they stop laughing.
Asuka (pointing at Shinji's chest) : "Can I rest here, please? I'm
Shinji : "Of course you can. What an obvious question..."
Asuka then puts her head on his chest, and with her right hand rubs it
softly. She then closes her eyes, feeling like she's in the safest place
in the world. Shinji can smell her graceful red hair. He puts one hand
around her shoulder while the other caresses her cheek slowly. He then
notices that the ring he bought Asuka is on her right hand.
Shinji : "...You kept it?"
Asuka : "It's one of the only presents you gave me. And I value this
like I never valued anything before."
Shinji : "You're serious about that?"
Asuka (smiling and looking up at him) : "Shinji...you're so sweet to me.
Like no one has ever been before. You succeeded in breaking all the
barriers I had put up to protect myself. Even when I was hitting you,
even when I was scorning you, you were calm. You wouldn't hurt me,
because you loved me. And I, Sohryu Asuka Langley, am for once, grate-
ful to someone...for that."
Shinji : "You're right...I wouldn't hurt you, I couldn't, and I won't.
Asuka : "And as for me, for the past months, I was with you, I am now,
and I always will be, as long as life will let us live together,
Shinji (trembling) : "Asuka...I don't know what to say, really. Will
you forgive me one day for what I've done? For leaving you alone like
Asuka (grinning) : "Hmmm...I don't know if I'll forgive you. Maybe,
maybe not. We'll see about that later, but I'll make sure you pay the
right price for that."
Shinji : "Tease."
Asuka : "Wimp."
The two lovers chuckle. Short pause.
Asuka (softly) : "I won't stay here for too long...classes will start
in a few minutes. I'll let you go, don't worry."
Shinji : "I don't care."
Asuka : "What?"
Shinji : "As long as you're here, skipping classes isn't really a
Asuka (softly, almost a whisper) : "Shinji, you idiot."
Shinji : "Asuka, thank you...for being there."
Asuka : "Thank you, too, Shinji...for giving me something I had never
known before. Thank you for caring."
They stayed in that position for a long time and finally fell asleep
under that tree, while the sun was shone over Tokyo-3, and over their
Misato's apartment. The whole place is deathly silent. There's only
Misato, head buried in her hands, sitting at the kitchen table. A can
of beer sits on the table next to her, untouched since she set it down
there. It looks like she's sleeping, but definitely isn't, as she
whispers 'damn', 'my God' or 'dammit' several times to herself. She
lifts up her head when she hears the front door open. She eavesdrops
on the conversation from where she sits.
Shinji : "Pfff...you're so heavy..."
Asuka : "Okay, then put me back down now, we're home! And how DARE you
say that? Teri's the one who's heavy, not me!"
Shinji (grinning) : "Accusing your child, knowing she can't stand up for
herself, is terrible proof of cowardice, Asuka."
Asuka (giggling and putting a hand on her stomach) : "Argh, she's kick-
ing me! Teri-chan, I'm so sorry!"
Shinji (chuckling) : "Well, she CAN retaliate after all, heh heh..."
Asuka : "We're home now. So put me down!"
Shinji (smiling) : "Okay, so we're home. But no, I won't put you down
Asuka : "Baka. Misato's gonna see us..."
Too late. Misato is at the other end of the hallway, giving them a
lingering and bewildered look. What she sees is Asuka in Shinji's arms,
clinging to his neck with both hands, while he supports her with a hand
under her back and the other under her thighs. Misato is, to say the
least, speechless. She even drops the beer can she was holding, causing
it to spill all over the floor.
Asuka : "Misato, is something wrong?"
Misato (trembling) : "No...I just..."
She then quickly runs to her room, shutting the door behind her.
Asuka : "What's up with her?"
Shinji : "I don't know, either..."
Misato's room. Misato slumps against her door before slowly sliding down
to a sitting position. She then looks up at the ceiling, revealing tears
in her eyes.
Misato : "God, why are you so cruel to those children!?"
TO BE CONTINUED
Don't miss the last episode : "A final purpose, a final promise."
Author's Notes :
This quick post was to apologize for the long wait for the Seventh Month.
I hope you enjoyed this month, too!
Don't worry, the last month of Asuka-chan's pregnancy is on the way!
It will be superb, I promise.
Special thanks this time to EBJ for the grammar and spelling corrections
and for all the help!
And all of my pre-readers : Al-l-Bus (author of 'Imagine Normality' and
'A New World for Shinji & Asuka'), Alain Gravel (aka Rakna, author of
'The One I Love Is...'), Borderline Case (author of 'Relfections in Red'),
Shinji The 10 O'Clock Assassin (author of 'Many Fanfics', heh heh :-) ),
Sudhoya'da, Sushi Boy, Sammy Sy, Jon Byram (author of 'Holy Knights'),
EBJ, Eva_Pilot00, Greg Thomas, Readiosys Fisher, Dave Watson, and Kaworu
Nagisa (author of 'EvaLeSs')
Thanks to all of you, and be prepared for the Ninth Month!
See ya soon,